*Disclaimer: One of my new year's resolutions is to obtain ownership of Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon. But until then, these disclaimers will have to remain. Medical Miracle Chapter 19: A Promise Made By: The Rose Society Rating: PG-13 Email: EtrlSlrMn@aol.com http://www.wishing-blue.net/kii/ *NEW* Laying upon her bed, Usagi watched as the rain gently fell from the roof, the wet drops merrily tapping out a melody on the ground below. She watched as the leaves of the tree nearest to her window danced in the rain, much as she would have done only a year ago. She loved all sorts of weather, but rain held a special place in her heart. There was something comforting about the water falling from the sky, like the tears of angels. A symbol of purity, rain came from the heavens to wash away the grime and dirt of Earth. Rain was a way for things to be reborn, to leave the old shell and emerge transformed, beautified. Sighing, Usagi turned her head away from the window. Soon, she would be entering her own rebirth. She would soon leave her mortal shell and journey beyond, to rejoin her parents. There was a measure of relief in this knowledge. As the disease progressed, the unflappable strength of her youth seemed to flee her body, frightened by the foreign entity growing within her. She began to lose weight, her famous appetite of her teenage years forgotten. She was more subdued than normal, surpassing even the quiet nature that had come after the death of her parents. At first, her friends had tried to keep her in good spirits. They teased her about her appetite, exclaiming in disbelief when she said that she was no longer hungry. But beneath their smiles, Usagi could see the hidden worry in their eyes. As her health slowly failed, those nearest to her began to grow more solemn, more frightened. Every day, Ami, Setsuna and Hotaru poured over the latest cancer research papers, hoping beyond hope to find something, anything, that might help Usagi fight her progressing disease. Setsuna had talked to her colleagues and found that her drug company that she worked for had created a new drug that might be able to help fight cancer. But it was untested and only in its experimental stage. A week ago, Setsuna had entered her room, trying to keep as silent as possible, in case Usagi was asleep. Finding the blonde wide awake, Setsuna had set herself in the bedside chair, her eyes unusually serious. "Usagi-chan," she had said, "I've asked around and we have approval for a drug trial. I was able to get you into the program. You'll be one of the first ones to try the new drug and it just might help you defeat your cancer." It had been one of her bad days. Blinking her blue eyes, Usagi fought against the pain that pulsed in her head. She had replied, "I always wanted to be a pioneer." A dry cough had followed. Alarmed, Setsuna had immediately grabbed Usagi's cup of water and helped the weakened blonde to take a drink. With a sigh, Usagi had settled back upon her pillow. "If this will help you, of course I'll participate, Setsuna. After all, the only thing I can help you with now is being a guinea pig." At her friends' stricken looks, contrition had struck. "Don't worry, Setsuna-tachi. I'll continue to fight. It hasn't beaten me yet!" But despite the fact that she now had an experimental drug running through her veins via daily injections, Usagi did not feel as hopeful as she tried to appear for her friends. She had been battling brain cancer for the longest time now. Dr. Hongo had tried everything and anything, looking for a way to help her patient and friend. But it had been to no avail. Every piece of literature said that this type of cancer was inoperable, incurable, and ultimately, deadly. Most drug companies didn't even conduct drug research for this type of cancer, since it was deemed a hopeless pursuit. How much longer could she hold on? Her friends and family could sense the sand slipping from the hour glass faster and faster. Shingo came to her room everyday after classes, as soon as he got home. He would share stories about certain professors and their quirks, often bringing a smile to his sister's face. Then, he would help his sister out into the kitchen, where anyone who was at the Tsukino home would all share in a dinner. By now, most of her friends had practically moved in with Usagi. Shinozaki had taken over running of the store, so that Makoto was free to spend her time at Usagi's. Minako, Michiru and Haruka were on vacation, so they were free as well, stuck to Usagi as if they were bodyguards. Ami and Hotaru would come as soon as they finished their rounds and spend their nights in the Tsukino home. Setsuna would join the group as soon as her shift ended, often picking up Rei from the temple. They were all trying to spend as much time as possible with their friend, knowing that the end loomed large over their heads. A hand suddenly placed itself over her own. Turning, Usagi saw the owner of the hand and smiled. Returning her smile, Mamoru sat down next to her, not saying a word. A day after her return, Usagi awoke to find Mamoru in the kitchen, drinking a cup of coffee with Haruka and Makoto. Startled, she asked, "Why are you still here, Mamoru?" Standing up, Makoto started to pour another cup of coffee while Mamoru went to give Usagi a quick kiss on the head. "What a way to greet your boyfriend in the morning, Usako." Blushing to the roots of her hair, Usagi was silent until her face could cool. Laughing at her expression, he motioned for her to sit down at the breakfast table. This whole relationship thing was new to the both of them and Usagi was very unaccustomed to showing affection in front of her friends. Haruka and Makoto joined in the laugher at Usagi's discomfort before both left the couple alone, sensing their need to sort some things out. 'Hey, what the heck just happened there?' Self-Control was a bit put out, considering the wacky author had just did something very out of character to Mamoru. 'Calm down, old chum,' replied the Voice. 'Mamoru is just showing his lady-love some affection. Is that illegal or something?' It returned to watch the unfolding scene. 'In fact, it is.' Taking out a thick manual, Self-Control quoted, 'Chapter 8, Section 3, Paragraph 15: Public displays of affection are expressly forbidden for Chiba Mamoru. The consequences of such an action would bring untold embarrassment and would open the host to so much possible pain that such an action is NOT to occur.' Closing the thick manual, Self-Control smirked, assured of its victory. There was no answer. 'Hey, did you hear me?' Still no answer. Irritated at being ignored, Self-Control heaved the manual with both hands and brought it crashing upon the Voice's head. 'HEY!!!! That HURT!' 'No kidding, idiot,' replied Self-Control. 'It was meant to.' 'What did you do that for?' The Voice rubbed the immense bump on its head, grimacing. 'To get your attention. You just did something that is expressly forbidden. What do you have to say for yourself?' Self-Control put its hands upon its hips, demanding an answer. Before the Voice could reply, however, a horde of personality aspects poured into the arena. Logic, the usual speaker for the group, turned to hand Self-Control a piece of paper. 'Huh?' The note read: Attention all personalities. The Manual on Chiba Mamoru has now been revised, due to new developments. Please study the new manual and make note of all changes. Self-Control turned to the group, confused. 'Why wasn't I made aware of this?' Logic coughed, balancing its small glasses. 'You and the Voice have not been attending the scheduled meetings, as you should have. This was created in the meeting following the kiss.' Several sighs came from the more hormonal section of the personality aspects. Undeterred, Logic continued, 'Since the time of the host's love is limited, it has been decreed that the Voice be allowed to make as many decisions as possible-' A whoop came from the Voice. Glaring at the interruption, Logic continued, 'in regards to Tsukino Usagi. Self-Control is to remain in control of other aspects. Veto power remains with the group, as always. The Voice, however, is NOT to go overboard and is asked to at least confer with Self-Control before decisions are made.' Love stepped in, for the first time in their existences. All made way for the newcomer. 'Time is precious for these two. Let the host savor each moment without silly limitations based on fear of embarrassment or pain. She won't hurt him in any way.' It looked at the scene and smiled. Gently, Love pulled Depression, Fear, Loneliness and all the other dark emotions into its embrace. 'Rest, for you shall not be needed for awhile yet.' Slowly, all of the personality aspects faded away until only an elated Voice and a disgruntled Self-Control remained. 'I HAVE DA POWER!!!' The Voice cackled evilly as its rubbed its hands together. It looked madly at the scene while Self-Control shook its head. Out of the darkness, a metal probe with a label that bore markings that looked like the words 'VETO' streaked out and gave a healthy jolt to the Voice. 'Remember, contain yourself,' came a disembodied voice. Seeing stars, the Voice merely laid there as Self-Control shook its head once more. 'We're doomed,' was its last thought. "Why are you still here, Mamo-chan," asked Usagi, once she was sure that her friends weren't spying on them. Mamoru looked at his love, amusement in his eyes. "Are you embarrassed to be seen with me, Usako?" Appalled, Usagi turned around quickly from her place by the kitchen door. "Of course not, Mamo-chan!" She sat in a chair next to Mamoru and took a sip from her coffee. "It's just that, well, I'm surprised that you're still here and not at the hospital. And that kiss back there...it was sort of weird for me." She waved her hands when Mamoru's face began to fall. "Don't get me wrong, I'm not embarrassed of our relationships. It's just that I'm unused to showing such public displays." Sighing, Mamoru gently pried Usagi's fingers from her coffee cup. Holding her hands lightly, he gave each hand a kiss before he placed their still joined hands back on the table. Rubbing his thumbs against her fingers, he sought to find the exact words to describe the change. "You see, Usako, this is my first relationship. It's your first real relationship in a long time. I've wasted too many years with you. I want to make up for lost time." He squeezed her hands gently. "I love you, Usa, with such a wealth of emotion that it frightens me. Everything in me screams to take it slowly. But, we can't." He placed her right hand against his cheek, covering it with his left hand. "For once in my life, I want to fall into love, fall so far that I'll never find my way back out. I want to forget my fears, forget my past, forget everything else exists except for you. I want to live in a world where there is nothing but you." Trembling, Usagi felt hot tears make their way down her cheeks. Pulling her to him, Mamoru cradled Usagi's form, resting his chin upon her soft hair. "No more hospital, no more Dr. Hongo, no more anything, except for you. If you don't get better, if you d..." his voice choked but he rambled on, "die, there will always be time for me to pursue those things afterwards. If you get better, I can be a doctor with you by my side. But the future is uncertain. I can't open a door and learn what the future holds. So, I won't take any chances. I'm going to hold onto what matters most to me. And that's you, Usa." Lifting her hand without looking, Usagi placed her fingers on Mamoru's lips, silencing him. "I love you, Mamo-chan. I know that your mind is made up about this and I can't change it. I can tell that from the stubborn line of your chin." He smiled, unseen. "Do what you think is best, Mamo-chan. But, promise me one thing." "Anything, aisuru." She closed her eyes, listening to Mamoru's heartbeat, letting the strong sound chase away her fears. "No matter what happens to me, you'll follow your dreams and become the best doctor that Japan has ever seen." Closing his own eyes against his tears, Mamoru nodded. "I promise, Usako." With that, the pair sat in the quiet of the kitchen, just holding onto each other, holding onto the moment. Ever since, Mamoru had not left the Tsukino house. He had asked Motoki to bring his clothes from his apartment, as well as a few other items. Shingo let him stay in the house, accepting this new man in his sister's life. He was happy for his older sister. Not since the accident had he seen Usagi so happy, so lively. All of her friends approved, although some took a little longer than the others. Mamoru cringed at the memory of Haruka pulling him aside, and with a grip of iron upon his shoulder, warned him that if he broke Usagi's heart, the racer would personally do horrible things to him that Mamoru didn't think humanly possible, and make sure that no one found his body. Usagi felt his shudder at the memory and tugged at his hand. With a smile of reassurance, Mamoru dismissed the issue. "I want to do something today, Mamo-chan," Usagi said, startling the man. The day had just dawned, so to speak, since it was raining. Usagi had been unwell for awhile now, lacking the energy to do anything besides stay in bed. Her normal rosy cheeks were paler, drained of color. "Are you sure, Usako? You haven't been feeling well, and it's raining out--" Shaking her head, Usagi frowned. "There is a feeling I have. I don't want to stay inside today. I want to go outside. Onegai?" Looking at her pleading expression, Mamoru finally relented. "Alright, Usako. Where do you want to go?" Chewing her lip, Usagi looked out the window once more. "Let's have a picnic." "A PICNIC?" Both Usagi and Mamoru turned to the door in surprise. A sleepy looking Rei stared at Usagi in disbelief. "Odango, are you insane? It's raining today! How in the world can you go on a picnic?" Yawning, Haruka looked inside, her short blonde hair sticking up in gravity-defying positions. "Picnic? Huh? What's going on?" "Usagi here just said that she wants to go on a picnic." Rei crossed her flannel clad arms. "I just wanted to go outside today, minna," Usagi said with a sigh. She looked at the rain falling merrily outside. She seemed so forlorn, the gray weather outside making her seem almost transparent, outer-worldly. Feeling her heart squeeze painfully, Haruka straightened. "Don't worry, neko-chan. If you want to go on a picnic today, you'll go on that picnic." Tugging on Rei's arm, she called over her shoulder, "Don't worry about a thing, neko! We'll plan all the details." The door closed with a slam. Outside, Rei pulled away, irritated. "Are you as insane as Odango, Haruka-san?" Her voice was rising with her outrage. Shooting a look at the priestess, Haruka motioned for Rei to follow her into the kitchen. The other girls and Shingo, just waking up more or less, greeted them. "Usagi wants to go on a picnic, minna," started Haruka. All head jerked up, confused. "How in the world are we going to go on a picnic during a rainy day?" Minako tossed a generous amount of creamer into her coffee, stirring absentmindedly. "I don't know," replied Haruka, looking out the window. "But you didn't see her, sitting there on her bed. She looks like she's already leaving us. We're her friends, her family. How can we deny her request?" All were quiet as they considered Haruka's words. "Well," said Ami softly. "Maybe there is a way." She looked up. "Haruka, Michiru, Mina-P, do you think you could make some calls? Can you see if one of your contacts could get Tokyo Tower reserved for just us tonight? It should stop raining by then." Setsuna raised an eyebrow. "You want to have a picnic at night?" She pondered for a moment before she brightened. "What a wonderful idea, Ami! We can have a picnic with a view of Tokyo at night, as well as the stars. It will be beautiful." Grinning, Makoto stood up. "Well, sounds great to me. What are we sitting here for? We have a ton of things to do! Rei, Hotaru, do you think you guys can help me go to the store? I'll need a few new supplies and then I can whip up the best picnic we've ever had." Smiling, the ten headed their separate ways, some to work, to school, to the store, or to the phone. At seven that night, the group set out. Haruka, Michiru, Ami and Rei in Haruka's car, Mamoru, Usagi, Shingo, Chibi-Usa, who had begged to go along, despite having school the next day, and Setsuna in Mamoru's car, and Minako, Hotaru, Makoto and four huge picnic baskets in Minako's rental car. The group drove to Tokyo Tower, which, thanks to a few favors to Minako and Haruka, was completely empty. They rose the elevator up to the observatory level and set out their feast. Amongst the lights of the city and the flickers of starlight and moonlight, the group dined and chatted, laughing with joy. After the meal had ended, Usagi suggested that they all stargaze before heading back. With Chibi-Usa, asleep against her side, Usagi stretched out on the floor onto of an old blanket, leaning against Mamoru. Her friends were all around her, their eyes turned to the beautiful night sky, some lost in conversation, others in peaceful contemplation. "This was a wonderful idea, Usagi-chan," said Rei, her voice echoing slightly in the empty metal room. After smiling in acknowledgement, Usagi turned her attention back on the clear night sky. Thankfully, the clouds had cleared out and the rain had stopped, leaving nothing in the way of the millions of tiny pinpricks of light. Mamoru, his chest to Usagi's back and his long legs stretched out next to hers, hugged his blonde love. "Are you enjoying yourself," he asked quietly. She snuggled closer in his embrace and smiled. "Immensely, Mamo-chan. What more could I ask for? My brother, my friends, and my beloved are all here, with me, enjoying one of the most beautiful sights in the world." Usagi turned back to look at Mamoru and squeezed his hand. She looked at the warm weight next to her. "Poor Chibi-Usa." Usagi could clearly see the tearstains on the girl's cheeks. "I wish you didn't have to suffer any more, sweetie. I wish that more than anything." She hugged the tiny girl's form and the girl smiled in her sleep. "I wish I could be there for you, Chibi-Usa. I would have loved to have been able to help take care of you. But I know that Ami-tachi will do a fine job caring for you. I'm glad that Setsuna has decided to adopt you. She'll make an excellent mother." She looked towards the friend she spoke of, and then looked at her other friends, her family, actually. They had seen her through everything. School, the pain of losing her parents, the difficulties of making a life for herself and her brother, and her cancer. They were closer than most families. Moonlight shone into the observatory room, bathing all occupants in its ethereal light. Silver masked Usagi's blonde hair and her delicate features, making her seem as she did before the cancer ravaged her body. She was a beautiful sprite. Mamoru's breath caught. Placing a kiss on her cheek, Mamoru held the hand that was unencumbered by Chibi-Usa, not wanting to let go. He listened to Usagi's soft breathing, felt her warmth against his chest, the softness of her skin where their hands met. He reveled in every single sensation as he stared out into the night sky. Suddenly, a streak of light arched in the night sky. With a gasp, Minako whispered, "It's a shooting star! Make a wish, minna." Everyone closed their eyes, silently wishing. Her heart full of happiness, Usagi closed her eyes and wished for nothing. She already had everything. When he opened his eyes, Mamoru whispered in Usagi's ear, "What did you wish for?" There was no answer. "Usako?" He shook her gently, thinking her asleep. His efforts caused Usagi's hand to slip from his own, lifeless. Translations: aisuru- beloved minna- everybody name-tachi- basically means everyone Author Notes: Break was wonderful! Really refreshed my mind. Hope you enjoy this latest piece! Until the next chapter... ~The moonlight carries the message of love.~ ~Tsuki no hikari wa ai no message.~